Birth Story

Friday October 26th started out with my stretch and sweep scheduled for 1:15pm with my midwife Sharon. Found I was only a 1-2cm dilated and she wasn't going to be mean to my cervix so she gave it a stretch and sent me on my way. I posted on Facebook that we were still waiting for Rawiri and one of my friends suggested Red Raspberry Leaf Tea so off I went to grab some as I really wanted him out.

I didn't really have a good sleep at all but being that late along the pregnancy I didn't think much of it anyway. Then at 3am I was awoken by a pretty strong back contraction. I changed sides not thinking about it too much. Then shortly I felt another one. Oh well I had had contractions similar to this. I decided to go to the toilet since I was up. Sat down and did my thing and then wiped and that is when I saw the bloody show and realized labor was starting. I'll admit I was seriously excited but realizing the time I figured I should get some rest while I could. I went back to bed and breathed through the contractions until I knew I couldn't lie down anymore. I woke up Joe and told him today was probably going to be the day but that I would let him sleep until I needed him. I put on socks and pants and then turned on the heater as it was a little cold. I walked around and tried to find a comfortable spot to labor in. I knew that kneeling on all fours was often recommended and so I tried it out and found it worked well for me. Around 4:30am I woke Joe as I was having back labor and knew his hands would help with the relief. The contractions were coming every 3.5mins and lasting about 45secs. I called my midwife at 5:00am to let her know what was happening but knew I was okay to continue at home. I continued to drink fluids, eat a little and go to the toilet. I was having more and more show so I took it that things were moving along.

At about 5:30am I decided to jump in the shower to see if that helped with the back labor. It didn't so much and Joe ended up having to stick his arm in during a contraction to alleviate the pain in my back. I was starting to feel like when I was laboring with baby Joe and it became hard but it had only been a couple of hours so I didn't think I could really be that far along already. I had called my mum before the shower to let her know things had started and by the time I had finished using all the hot water in the shower her and my dad had shown up.  I can honestly say that when she came it’s like my body kicked into the next level of pain because contractions went straight to 2 minutes apart last about a min each and I was feeling like I was barely able to catch my breath before the next one started. I had been trying to focus and breathe calmly but I was now starting to lose it some. Between 6-7am I was really grateful for my mum and husband because they were such excellent support people and made sure to help me to hold it together. 

I called my midwife (Sharon) around 7am and I will admit I was starting to think about an epidural A LOT! I was tired and hurting a lot. She told me I was doing well and to just stay focused and call her in an hour. About 20 minutes later I was beside myself in tears. The contractions were so terrible and it seemed like nothing I was doing was giving me relief. Looking back I now realize I was probably right in the thick of transition. I know I was saying all the phrases like "I'm done" and "I can't do it anymore" but all I wanted was to get to a hospital so I could get some relief. I called Sharon and she said to make my way in but she also made a big difference when she said that I needed to just focus and realize that as one would come it would go away. She kept asking if I could feel pressure in my bottom and I told her no. I guess that is why I was feeling so discouraged because if I wasn't feeling pressure then I probably wasn't close the end. We had to make our way to the car and I basically told myself that I had to breathe until I couldn't breathe anymore and then push a little bit more air out. As I am walking out the door all of sudden I feel a change in my back pain and realize that I may actually be feeling some pressure in my bottom. 

Getting into the car was the hardest part but I knew if I didn't I might be having my baby in a garage. The 6 minute drive was definitely long and I knew that my body was getting ready to push and all I could do with the contractions was to apply that pressure somewhere else so I bit down on Joes arm. He was wearing a shirt and jumper so I was focusing more on biting the jumper. It was what I need to steer the pain and focus on just getting to the hospital. We got out of the car to walk to the second floor but right before the elevator I had to collapse to the floor and I could feel his head move down ready to come. We jumped in that elevator and thank goodness it was quick. We got into the birthing center and I screamed out "Help! I need to push!" 3 angel nurses appeared running and basically carried me to a room as my body literally took over and started to push Rawiri out. It is the strangest feeling because you feel like doing a big poo but you can’t get it all out in one go. They told me not to hold back but just to let my body do what it felt like. They removed my pants and I climbed onto the bed. The moved the front up so I could squat and it was exactly what I felt like doing. I was holding the top of the bed and then bearing down into a squat when my body felt like it. 

My midwife had told me she was going to dry her hair and meet me at the hospital but she must of been inspired to give that up because she all of sudden ran in, she was there but expecting me in a different room. She looked me in the eye and I know she was talking and telling me he was right there but I was just looking her in the eye and felt such a surge of power. This was my first time to push drug free and it was everything I had read and more. My body did the pushing for me and I just breathed as much as I could and pushed a bit more when I felt like it. The ring of fire is a real deal. Honestly I didn't quite understand how big a baby head is until you and right ready to push it out. I kept thinking I hope my mum gets here soon because he is almost here. I heard her voice and with the next contraction I felt him move back inside and I knew this would be it. I bore down with everything I had, screamed a bit and felt his head come through. It was an amazing feeling and I didn't have much time because the rest of him slid out with the next contraction. My midwife said he came out like superman with one little arm out by his face and that helped with the shoulder delivery. I was crying and amazed because we had probably only been at the hospital for like 15 minutes and he was here. Joe got to cut the cord and then they turned me around so I could hold him. He had done a poop on the way out and it turned out all my water bags were up behind him and had followed him out. 

He was absolutely adorable and such a tiny little guy. I knew he was nowhere near as big as baby Joe. He was perfect in everyday and arrived at 7:52am about 4 hours from my first contraction. I didn't have to have a single IV or monitor and actually never got checked either because I arrived crowning. I think I was a little bit of a celebrity in the ward arriving right I time to deliver and I honestly know that Heavenly Father blessed me with that because otherwise I would have wanted pain relief if I was any less dilated. I also only needed two small stitches for some small grazing and I was up and having a shower an hour later. 

I thought Hinalei and baby Joes birth were nights and day and now I know that even baby Joe and baby Rawiri are night and day experiences to. Baby was 7lbs 9oz which is over a pound less than baby Joe and he was 3 days overdue and an ounce heavier than Hinalei. He latched on great and has been nursing whenever he wants since. He is the shortest so far at only 20 inches but I think he will take after his dad and be long and leggy. What a wonderful Saturday it turned out to be!

The kiddies update!

A 3.5 year old and an 18 month old and one still to make his appearance. Seriously I loving life right now. Hinalei surprises each day with the magnitude that she grows both in mental capability and understanding. I seriously find it amazing when I step back and watch her do something and she does it so confidently. Today she managed to spread her own sandwich and knew just what to do. She is becoming more and more confident with writing the letters to her name and has been adding her words to her vocabulary. I love it. She is a really really helpful kid. She is willing to get anything for her brother and to put his stinky diapers in the trash. While she is still working on sharing most of the time she isn't phased by him playing with all her toys. He does like to pull her hair a little too much but she is pretty good at  telling him no without lashing out back at him. Sure she still does little things or can revert back to baby actions but mostly she is just needing a little bit more attention and then she is fine. She loves all things princess and dancing. She will often get completely dressed up and then approach her dad and say "We need to dance prince!" I know he loves those moments and will always lift her up into a twirl and sing to her as they dance.

My son is such a character. He loves to pull up his shirt and grunt like the hulk or scream at the top of his lungs while showing off his muscles. He loves anything musical and will bop away to songs on the TV. In church he is always following the conductor and trying to mimic and at my mums house he will sit at her organ just pressing the keys. I am sure music will be a huge part of his life. He loves the outdoors and with just doodle around our garden or front yard while I watch him. He is very observant of what we do. He is right to the point of wanting to do what the grown ups are doing and often wants to pour something in the bowl or hold the tongs. Today he tried grating carrot with me! He makes us laugh so much and is just a happy little guy. He hates nursery unless we stay with him the whole time which is the opposite to Hinalei who loved it from the start. He loves to eat anything and everything and you know something is wrong if he isn't putting something in his mouth. He loves to wear his green crocs his Nanny got for him and is obsessed with opening cars and playing in the drivers seat.







Seriously having one of each is so interesting and I know that having 3 will only bring more joy and opportunity to love.

39 weeks and waiting...

First time I have been pregnant through to 39 weeks. I am doing okay. Sure I feel a little weird that with my other two they would have been here by now but because I am still slightly freaking out at the whole "Mother of 3 thing" I am happy to have a bit more waiting time. The weather hasn't been helping much because even on a clear day it is super windy so I haven't been able to do much walking and my little son has had some serious eye puffiness lately (which I know I could cure with breastmilk) but we are working through it.

All in all it is just a waiting game and I know it will all be worth it once he is here!
 37 weeks
 38 weeks and midwife said his head was engaged!
 We setup the bassinet on week 38 just in case he decided to follow in his siblings footsteps
 My missionary sister from Temple Square sent him these gorgeous newborn crocs. I totally love them and can't wait to see them on his little feet.
39 weeks.

Primary Presentation

Hinalei had her first ever primary presentation. She did such a great job. She had a small line to say which we practiced every night after family scriptures and we practiced the songs a lot too - especially as I was the primary music leader. She got to sing in a quartet with her friends Jazmyn, Nevaeh and Petra to the song Nephis courage. They were so gorgeous and I was pretty darn proud. I got out my sewing skills and made her a white puletasi for the presentation as the children had to wear white or black. She looked gorgeous and did so well for a little 3 year old. Her part said "In March we learned that living prophets help me choose the right!" 
 Modeling her puletasi. She like to look "fashion"!
 
 Ready for church!
Hinaleis friends - Zoram, Jazmyn and Rahsivic

Full Term

Yup we are in the final countdown of baby #3 and all I keep thinking about is the little sister I need to have for Hinalei. This pregnancy has definitely had its ups and downs but I am really enjoying the fact that I am not counting down and hoping my mum arrives in time for the delivery. In fact I keep telling people that I don't mind if I go over due because I am still struggling with the thought of having 3 real little humans to chase around and take care of.

Pros of the pregnancy:
1. Having my mum here for anything I needed. She has seriously been the biggest lifesaver. I remember when I was going through morning sickness and had a migraine she came over and took care of my kids the entire day while I slept. I would not have been able to do that if we were living anywhere else. And she was actually sick with her own headache as well.
2. Being 5 minutes from my midwife, ultrasounds and blood test places. Seriously it has made things so much easier not having to travel all the way to Honolulu for an ultrasound or blood test or Dr. appt where they see us for 5 minutes and most of the time don't even know who we are :/
3. Fitness. Having lost about 30 pounds before being pregnant certainly made my more conscious and careful this time round. When I compare pictures of myself with this pregnancy and baby Joe I was seriously doing some harm to my body. Now I haven't been a saint but I have done considerably better and I can feel it too because I am 37 weeks and still able to have a relatively okish sleep. haha

Cons:
1. Pregnant while it is winter. Seems to make it so miserable because you are always cold and sick. Which I was over and over again.
2. Heartburn - always a constant for my pregnancy
3. Glucose tests for diabetes - 3 times I had to take the test and I had to sit in the lab for the 2 hours just hating every single minute

32 weeks
33 weeks
 34 weeks
 35 weeks
 36 weeks
 
Overall I have had a really good time with this pregnancy and hope I have a good delivery. I really want a water birth but right now I am arguing with a substitute midwife because my midwife is on holiday and there is every chance I could come early. Mostly I just want a healthy baby and if I get that I will be fine with whatever type of delivery.

My big boy

I feel responsible that my little son has to grow up in the next month and will no longer hold the baby title. Tonight we made the shift of him sleeping in our room in his toddler bed to his own room. We had originally shifted him from his Portocot into the toddler bed so he could be use to that but lately he has been waking up very early because of his dad getting ready for work and I knew it was time to put him in his own room. Plus with only about 6 weeks till the new baby comes I knew we would have to transition him soon so it wasn't a big shock. Right now I miss him and want to go in and give him a cuddle but he is fine and he will be fine.

We have also started working on weaning him off bottles because he really doesn't need them and has been drinking from a cup for a while. I think that was more of a AHA moment then anything just having to realize that he is old enough to do the toddler stuff. Next is the dummy/pacifier which I am not excited about but also sick of finding or making sure to have one.

Little Joe is very special to me. I really healed a lot physically and mentally when he was born because he allowed me to overcome my troubles from my c-section with Hinalei. Sometimes I feel like I can look in his eyes and we just understand each other. He is one of the sweetest spirits I know and I am so grateful he came to our family.

Love you my son!!

There are still people like this in the world

We had another miracle this week. I have been truly humbled. For the last couple of months financially we have barely been getting by and the winter months seemed to only make it worse with constant trips to the doctors and having to pay for winter power for the first time EVER. Work wise it has been a bit hard for Joe because in June he found out that the bonuses and/or incentives which all of his colleagues would be receiving he was not eligible for because his contract was slightly different to everyone else. It was all related to his residency status however up until that point he was always told it was a performance based bonus so everyone including his boss thought that it was based on "performance" not on residence status. (We have now applied for his residency and are currently waiting for a decision which is a 3+month process.) It was hard for husband I think because he lost a lot of his motivation and felt slighted by his company. He felt he had done the hard work they had asked of him and now he because ineligible because of a piece of paper.

August was his 1 year mark and his entire team were going to receive their bonuses and also their yearly increase (Joe was ineligible for that too.) Well yesterday (August 31) I got a call from him and he said we had just got a huge blessing. I asked what it was. His team members had joined together and all put in a bit of money and given Joe a "Team Bonus". When he told me this I felt so happy for my husband. I don't know anyone that knows Joe has ever met that thought ill of him. He is a very friendly kind of guy and easy to get along with. Where I am the kind of person that can be selective or slow to make friends he can talk to anyone and everyone and is a really genunine person. 

He was truly humbled to receive such a gesture from his fellow work mates and I know that you have to be a special kind of person to even get that kind of a wonderful gesture from people. I am more amazed at his team. I know from talking with Joe that many of his team members are Christians or have a belief in God or a higher power. There team was originally on a shift from 1:30pm till 11pm (Tuesday - Saturday) when Joe first began work and then 3 months later their were moved to a normal 8:00-4:30pm shift. According to there team leader a opportunity for such a new team to move to such a coveted time slot is unheard of and yet most of his team openly acknowledged that they had been praying for such a change. Amazing right? Well now again they have shown such amazing charity and love towards my husband and our little family.

Below is a write up which has been done about this gesture and I am so grateful to these wonderful people that have blessed our family so much. 

(Names and his company have been omitted)
To whom it may concern,

We have had an amazing experience in our team this week which is not shown so often in the world today, so we are writing about this example in hope that it could be looked into to celebrate those involved and that similar occurrences might be seen in a different light.

One of our team mates has been working here for close to a year now, has put in more effort than most (which of course can be seen in the results and atmosphere he creates) and has been one of the most positive influences in the company call center in a very long time.

Unfortunately bonus time has come around for the year (fortunately for most); and while we have all been celebrating and having conversations around the water cooler about what to spend our large pay cheques on; our team mate has had to face the facts that he will not be receiving a pay increase nor bonus/incentives for his hard work due to issues with his residency. Furthermore, I believe he is the only one in our team with a wife and kids and would have appreciated it the most.

Our team leader has tried every direction possible to persuade people to hear him out – but all requests and ideas were declined. I (personally) slightly felt disappointed personally to hear that “we” as a business had fallen from taking care of our family to concentrating on numbers, figures and contracts.

On a good note – Our team decided to put together a shared lunch, we all brought a plate along to celebrate the bonus and a year of hard work. We also decided in the background to bring together some money of our own to create a “team bonus” for our team mate and surprise him.

This of course went exceptionally well; he thanked each member of our team and gave everyone a hug – this is what a family is about, and how we should be treating our fellow colleagues

Thank you for your time,
His team mates

The little things

Sometimes there are moments I wish I could just freeze and hold into forever.

Like how baby joe sleeps with a monkey pillow pet on his face each night. How he puts his hands in the air when he gets excited. How he says thank you every time I make him a bottle or how he throws a huge fit every time we don't let him feed himself. I want to remember how he chuckles every time we let him talk on the phone or how putting the vacuum to your hand and jumping makes him roll with laughter.

Or how Hinalei wants to be read dozens and dozens of books each night. How she plays pretend every night with her dad and she is Belle and he is gaston or she is Wendy and he is Peter or she is Tiana and he is prince navene. How she loves to eat boiled eggs at any meal and thinks cheese is a food group. I love how she already tries to get Joe to do something I already told her no to and how he falls for it every time :).

Sometimes I have moments of sadness when I realize that these moments will soon be gone and replaced by school and friends and maybe even FB. People are right when they tell you that your kids are only little for a short time.

While motherhood for me does not come easy and I feel like I am flustered most of the time and most days I know that it is worth it so much more than any satisfaction a job could give me. It is definitely the hardest thing I will have to do but when Hinalei or Baby Joe snuggles on my arm or calls out to me instead of there dad I know I must be doing ok.

Sorry this post is more for me than anyone else but I just want to remember every detail of them when they are young!

Two huge miracles.

The point of my post is to share some most amazing and blessed news. I am not trying to boast, in fact I feel anything but pride right now and I am in awe of my Heavenly Fathers loves for me and my family. Firstly we actually got the letter back from Thailand  regarding an important document needed for us to complete Joes residency and can now proceed with getting submitting the papers for Joes NZ residency. This is such a huge weight off my mind and one that I am so grateful to the Lord for providing us with the letter back from Thailand. It took exactly 1 month from the time we mailed it to the time it was returned to us.

This leads me to my second miracle. The letter and this miracle happened on the same day so needless to say a lot of tears have been shed in thanksgiving to our Heavenly Father. Well it is probably no stranger to anyone that when you have a small family and one person working that you struggle financially. I am so grateful that I get to stay home with my children but it has not been easy. Many times I feel like it is a juggle between which bill we have to postpone till next paycheck. However about a month ago while studying my scriptures and I came across this passage in 3rd Nephi 13:31-33 that says Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed? For your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.But seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you. Well I feel that in the past couple of months I have been learning a lot about faith and I so I decided that I was going to try and let go a lot more and try very very hard to trust in the Lord and his ability to provide for our needs. I will still keep budgeting my money but I would try and worry less about tomorrow and focus more on what I can do today. I am so lucky though to have a husband who does not want for a lot of brand name or stuff. He is very supportive of our family and is very good about living within our means. He does not ask for things and we don't argue about money which I am so grateful for. If anything I know he wishes he could do more.

Well I have been pleading with the Lord to provide some way for our family to not be so strapped financially and even to be able to pay off some much needed overdue bills. We received Josephs tax return and were able to do much good and I was waiting on $41 dollars for my tax return. Not much really but every bit helps. Well it showed online that it had been processed on August 10th but was yet to be deposited in my account. Now 11 days later I was becoming impatient and decided that I could not wait any longer so I gave them a call.

I was directed to several different people and finally to one lady who said some details regarding our tax details to be finalized. She asked me some questions and then had me put on hold for a while. She said that sometimes when it is a big return they have to double check on stuff and I was like... uh $41? That is a big return? 

Well after being on hold for 20 hours and feeling my eye balls falling out of my head as I got older and older and older...hehe... she came back on the phone and said that everything had been accepted by the computer and that our refund to the amount of $2657.73 had been approved. I was like "Um can you please repeat that?" She said that I would be receiving some back owing working for families refund of the above number and also an income tax return of $41. I thanked her, hung up the phone and burst into tears. I was literally sobbing uncontrollably for about 15 minutes while Joe tried to ask what had happened and Hinalei keep saying "Mummy stop crying, stop crying." Finally I managed to get the words out and we all knelt down and thanked Heavenly Father for his tender mercies and for showing me once again how aware he is of our little family. Not only will this money pay off the debts we have but will allow us to have a little extra.

I just want to bear my testimony to you that Heavenly Father is aware of us each indivdually. SO  SO SO many times in the last couple of months I have struggled with whether to pay tithing, whether to pay fast offering etc and now here the windows of Heaven have opened and I am in awe and totally humble at the same time that the Lord has provided for our little family. I love this gospel with all my heart and I am grateful to a Heavenly Father who is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow!

Nesting and the freak out

I have started nesting. I am getting really excited about our new little bundle of boy and I have started making lists and checking it twice and pinning projects etc. I am currently sewing some bassinet fitted sheets. This is my first baby that will have a bassinet. Hinalei had a crib because no one told us a bassinet was better for a newborn and baby Joe was in a portacot after we arrived in NZ. This time in our own little place I wanted a bassinet. I have been deal hunting and finally this week managed to score one for less than an arm and a leg... Seriously NZ prices for baby stuff is ridiculous. Sometimes I like to go onto the Walmart site just to tease myself on the prices I am missing out on. For instance a bottle sterilizer here is around $200 at Walmart I saw it for $40. I wanted to shed some tears. Also pampers which are my favorite newborn baby diapers are nowhere to be found in NZ unless you order them online directly from the company website and they don't even have the swaddler ones you buy from Walmart or target. Doh!

I have also been reading up on what other mums have to say about #3 kids because I always hear that it is the hardest number to handle. Most of them mention keeping it simple for the first few months. Setting yourself like simple day to day goals, feed the kids, feed self, wash face, maybe change your pj pants. Stuff like that. Not to stress about going out or juggling to many outings. Baby is due right as holiday season basically begins so we will see how that actually works out. I am worried to about getting house work done so I have been trying to clean little by little and prep food ideas that are simple and quick to put together that everyone will eat. I am worried a bit about my little Joe because I am so not ready for him to be my big grown up 2nd child but he already is such a little dude that I am confident he will be sweet and I can just see in a years time my 2 little terrors getting into all sorts of mischief.

I am 30 weeks this week and while 10 weeks seems like a lot of time I know it is not. This whole year has just flown by!

Happy Birthday Daddy Joe



Joe celebrated his birthday on July 14th. We  went with all of the family to the Auckland Zoo, watched Big Miracle and ate Burger King and had a delicious chocolate cheesecake for his birthday! The highlight had to be taking the kids to the Zoo because they loved it so much and Hinalei is so good at identifying animals. Baby Joe just pointed a lot and said Oh! at like all of the animals.












Happy 5 years

I don't know if many people know that Joe and I started dating on Joes birthday 2007. We had been hanging out a couple of weeks and I really liked him but we hadn't been on any official dates. I knew that we were both Harry Potter Geeks and so I wanted to watch #5 with him as it came out on his birthday but I wasn't sure if he liked me as much so trying to be really casual I contacted him over FB. I still have the messages from then and I wanted to put them up because it was what started our whole life together and I think it is so awesome and makes me feel kind of like a silly girl...hehe.
 

Funny Right? We never ended up taking any kids, we just went and had a fun time together and from then we just kept dating and now 5 years later we are living in NZ with 2.5 kids and still loving life. I love Joe with all my heart and I am so happy that all my concocting worked :)

Bell and Gaston

Hinalei was walking around with a hand basket pretending to be Belle from beauty and the beast like she usually does but this time she walked up to her Dad and said:
Hinalei: Hello Gaston!
Joe: Hello Belle! What are you doing?H: I have a new book from the bookstore
J: What is this? How can you read this? It doesn't have any pictures. Belle it is about time you get your head out of the clouds and start paying attention to more important things like me!
H: Oh Gaston, you are postively prime evil!

Danielle the Wonder Woman

Super Woman.
Spiritual Woman.
The Incredible Mom.
The Amazing Wife.
My wife is my superhero. Danielle, you're the most essential part of my happiness. Sometime I think about how you go about your daily routine an make it seem so effortless. I know that if I were in the same position, I would be overwhelmed.
I know that you are a incredible to me and our little family. I love you so much!

Love Joe

Halfway 2012

I don't know where this year is going! It is moving so so quickly. I feel bad because I really love keeping up with everyone else blogs and reading the happenings of there lives and yet I have not been doing a great job really of keeping up with my own families. It is partly because right now it feels like we are so busy and most of the things we get up to are recorded with an iPhone but also because it seems like I don't have a lot of time to stop and focus on getting a good worthy blog post down.

Argh so off. Today was definitely one of those forget me days. We had power outage problems and my Hinalei is now suffering from the nightmare stuff. Meaning she watches something scary and then wakes up later reciting that the exact same thing has happened to her. I am beside myself because I already have enough trouble sleeping being pregnant but she likes to climb in bed and sleep on me like I am giant pillow.

My little  boy is definitely not so little anymore. He went to nursery on Sunday and just like his older sister I don't think we are going to have a lot of problems transitioning him. He honestly just sits at the snack table for most of nursery. He eats so much. He is never done eating and will now not be fed by anyone. He will gladly sit and figure out to get every piece of his meal in his mouth and if you try and feed him he will just keep his mouth closed and refuse to eat. It is so independent which I totally appreciate in preparation for number #3.

Baby #3 is growing healthy and strong. For some strange reason Joe and I can't seem to settle on a single name for this boy. We have gone up and down every single name and list and researched and yet nothing seems to fit. We keep saying that when we meet him we will know but I am so wanting to have his name done before any of that. I am not sure exactly what the hold up is but I have a feeling it is related to the fact that Hinalei and little Joe both have significant names and we don't want to have this little baby feel any less. He is kicking now which is amazing.

While America has several interventions for birth I find NZ a lot more concerned about the size of a women. In the USA I never once got questioned about my weight while pregnant even though I knew I wasn't in a safe range and I honestly didn't do much to keep my weight under control. Here in NZ after losing 13kgs and then falling pregnant I have really feel like I have been guilt tripped a lot more about my size. It is hard to be overweight and pregnant. To not have the normal cute belly like everyone. I look at a lady who is pregnant with me but in the normal range and I see how round she is etc and I feel like I just look like I have been eating my way through winter.  Oops now I am totally just unloading in a negative way. I am glad that I did a lot before getting pregnant to be healthier and I know it has helped me stay healthier with this pregnancy.

The end of 2012 will definitely be exciting for our family and as we welcome our new baby boy and then countdown to my siblings returning from there missions. 



Conversations with Hinalei on family

M: Hinalei what is your name?
H: Hinalei
M: Hinalei Isabella Tuiaana Savaiinaea
H: No I am not Tuijaana Sapatinaea. I am just Hinalei

M: Bye Honey
H: Mummy, he is not your honey, he is just daddy
M: No Hinalei he is not my daddy, he is my husband and your daddy.
H: No he's not your husband!
M: Okay he is my darling
H: No he is not!!! He is just your daddy

M: Hinalei do you know that your nanny is my mummy?
H: No she is not. She is my nanny
M: Yeah but just like I am your mummy, she is my mummy and your nanny.
H: No she is not! She is just my nanny.

H: (Hears someone say "Oh crap" on TV.) Looks at me and says "Mum we can't say "Oh crap!"
M: Yes Hinalei we shouldn't say that word it is not nice.
H: Yeah. We can't say it. We can't say "Oh crap!" aye mum.
M: No we can't

A dear bishop

I write this post with a heavy heart. One of my very favorite and closest bishops from my time at BYU-Hawaii has passed away tragically from a car accident. I hate how we are reminded often how precious and fleeting life can be. Bishop Hubner was a huge man who upon first glance could come across quick overwhelming but he had the biggest heart and would always give you the time of day. From the time that Joseph and I started dating until even way later on in our marriage Bishop was always a friend. I can remember so many nights of walking the BYUH circle and seeing him and his wife walking the dog. They were kind and caring people who lived the gospel like you wanted to.

He will be sorely missed and I am so grateful I got to know this wonderful man.

Conversations with Hinalei

M: Who is the boss?
H: I am
M: No! Who is the boss?
H: I am

H: Mum a freaking crab was crawling up my window last night and tried to get me
M: (Feeling terrible for using freaking). Hinalei we don't say freaking, daddy won't be happy that we use that word
H: Okay mummy. Mum a crab was crawling up my window last night and tried to get me

H: Dear HF please bless that the baby in mummys belly won't make her spit and bless that I can be happy at preschool Amen.(Her prayer each morning before we leave)



Another little boy

Its a boy! Wow! My morning sickness had me convinced it was a girl because I felt much like when I was pregnant with Hinalei but low and behold it is another little fulla. Such the craziest experience at the ultrasound appointment. The tech is showing us babies feet which we are carefully looking at to make sure they do not show signs of club feet and there right in the middle for all the world to see is our new sons manhood. I couldn't help but have a little chuckle to myself as I watched him kick his legs around. More than anything I am just grateful to learn that baby is healthy and developing properly. Didn't get to see much of his profile so I am not sure at all who he will look like but already I have visions of two little boys running around together, playing rough, tackling each other, stealing each others clothes and toys and serving the sacrament together.

I am so grateful to be blessed with another priesthood holder in the home. What a blessing that will be and if everything works out Joe will leave on his mission and 18 months later his little  brother will follow. I feel for my princess but she is strong and wonderful girl that I know she will do fine. In fact from the very beginning she has told me I was having a boy and so she almost acted nonchalantly when the tech told us it was a boy. Like "uh duh I have been saying that all along." She carried the ultrasound pictures around with her for a while and showed anyone that would listen about the baby boy growing in her mums tummy. Its strange though because as I sat there watching her I had a very strong impression that we will one day receive another little daughter into our family. What an exciting time that will be for us.

Check out my little foot!

 I am a BOY!
Waving to us.

My boy

He hates getting dressed especially at bedtime. I love him in matching pjs. He is just so darn cute! We got given like 6 pairs of size 4 pj's from some friends and I was so discouraged because they were huge on him. Well I just decided to hem them and take them in a little here and a little there and viola he now has heaps of pj's to keep him warm this winter.
 This is him in my first pair of pants I sewed him. Found a simple and easy to follow pattern online and then cut up an old pair of pants that Joe wasn't wearing anymore. I never realized how similar in physique he is to his daddy.
 He loves loves loves the remote. Often times we will be watching something only to discover that he will change the channel on us or turn the TV off! Eating it is definitely his favorite activity though.
 More cut
 This is his caught out face. lol.
 He loves his dads ukulele so much. He is always pulling it down from the table or off the cabinet and trying to play it. He is actually pretty good with strumming away at the strings so there is a good chance he will be an avid player like his dad later on.
 He loves loves loves his bath time and he is the kind of kid who does not in any way get freaked out if you tip a bucket of water on his head. Totally just shakes it off and keeps playing. Hinalei tells me she always has to sit by the plug or he will pull it out
 Even though this picture is blurred I love it because I reckon boys have a built in thing about cars and toys and stuff. He watched one other kid have a go on this  bike and then he just hopped on and started scooting himself around. Crazy because Hinalei had one for like 2 years and barely ever touched it but son just hops on and knows exactly what to do
Time for a big boy cars eat. I was so not looking forward to shelling out for this car seat because I knew that in the states it costs like $54 dollars  but here it was well over $200. Argh! Thankfully through some careful researching and etc I managed to get it for less than that. He looks so much more comfortable but I know our little car is going to be way to small when #3 comes along.

Conversations with Hinalei - Age 3

I really think she won't believe me later on that we had these types of conversations at this age.

H: Mummy when I grow up I am going to marry my cousin Haare
M: Hinalei you can't marry your cousin
H: Mummy yes I can. I am going to be a princess and I can marry whoever I want!

H: Mummy I want a pink goldfish
M: Well you better say a prayer because I don't think Heavenly Father makes pink goldfish
H: Dear Heavenly Father, please bless me to get a pink goldfish in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen
H: Its okay mummy I can have an orange goldfish

H:Mummy I need to go catch the bus to go to my princess work
M: Why do you need to go to work?
H: So I can buy stuff
M: What kind of stuff?
H: Jellybeans and snakes

D: Hinalei time to get into bed! Ok go to sleep
H: No daddy! You forgot to say prayers with me
D: :/ oops!

M: (bad bad morning sickness in the toilet)
H: Daddy!! Daddy! Come quick! mummy is coughing in the toilet. She is coughing lots!

H: Mummy why were you coughing in the toilet?
M: Well the baby in my belly doesn't seem to like some of the foods I eat
H: Oh, well my baby in my tummy likes all the food I eat.




The kids of late







We are just busy.... no other excuse really but we are. With the new house and all of things we get up to during the day and also still combating these terrible pregnancy symptoms we are just plain busy. I am putting up some pictures to remind me of this time. This post might be long and scattered but I want to remember this time because they are growing so quickly.

Since moving into the new home Hinalei has her own room and has done so well at adjusting to her own room. I will eventually take pictures but I haven't really done anything to make the rooms personal so hence the no pictures. She goes to preschool 3 times a week and I know that she loves it. I see little things that she has picked up at preschool coming out at home and it shocks me sometimes just how much she comprehends. She is right into a princess faze right now and loves to dress up, do rosey tea time, wear a princess crown, watch disney princess movies etc.

Our son turned 1 the past month and then within a week just picked up his walking ten fold. He is so cute, steadying himself with his little hands (he looks like he is trying to ride a motorbike while walking) and then will just flop back onto his butt and take off crawling. If you didn't know him a year ago you would never believe that he was born with club feet. I have come to appreciate so much the fact that it wasn't a serious disability or birth defect and that he now suffers no discomfort at all and I know he won't remember a thing. He is starting to identify words and people and one of his favorite might  be "don't touch" which sounds more like "don toh"!

Number #3 I am sorry most of the time gets forgotten and maybe that is why my morning sickness has gotten so bad of late, like terrible but when I think of little newborn onesies and babies that can't roll away from you and little newborn noises I get so excited. We should find out at the end of the month what we are having.